Borderline Personality Disorder
E.R, age 44, Austria, September 2017
"I don't know anyone who might have experienced
this, where one is afraid to talk about something or to openly discuss
it, out of fear of losing it.
"I have had this fear for almost three years.
Now I am sure I can tell our story without being afraid that the burden
will return. In the broadest sense, it is about the healing of our family,
even though I am reporting mainly about our daughter. She was a difficult
child or else our upbringing made her a difficult child. Today I can no
longer say what was what. I was very young when she was born. My husband
worked abroad and we were in the process of building our house. All sorts
of financial obligations burdened us and I was mostly alone with the children,
without a clue about how to bring them up, so we managed the best we could.
"The problem with our oldest daughter started
early. She could never sleep, never mind sleeping through the night. When
she was about 8, she started to talk about encountering dead people in
the night. She insisted they were in our house and that she saw them on
the street corner. They would not talk to her, nor would they harm her.
They were just there! In the beginning I was afraid too. I am a devout
person, so naturally I prayed with her. It helped, but not always. She
mentioned that at times she could not tell the difference between the dead
and the living.
"At that time I knew she would be declared insane
if I talked to a doctor about it. Sometimes when it all got too much for
me, my husband and I thought we must take her to a psychiatrist.
But I was reluctant
to do this, as I feared they would just put her on medication. What followed
was an odyssey
of treatments by energy healers, homeopaths
and various quacks.
"Today I know that many people pay a great deal
of money to establish some contact with people from the hereafter. But
I can say only that, as a mother of such a child, one sees it differently.
Night after night we prayed that she could get some sleep. Often when I
was stressed out and lost my temper.
"I would say to her "You are here with the living,
not with the dead!" As she got older there were more and more problems.
Because of her lack of sleep at night she could not concentrate at school
and she was also rebellious. Besides, she was extremely precocious
and soon had a boyfriend. At this point we already felt totally powerless,
so I was pleased about it at first, as I hoped everything else would disappear.
But it got worse.
"She was only 12 when she said for the first time
"I will kill myself anyway". She has hysterical.fits
and blamed us for the fact no one would help her. And then she might say
"You no longer have to take me to healers and clairvoyants,
they only take your money and don't have a clue about me", after which
she would shriek with laughter.
"Out second child suffered terribly. My husband
threatened again and again that he could not take it any longer, that our
family was falling apart, that he would take our oldest child to a hospital.
I cried and prayed and felt hopeless.
Over and over again I begged her to restrain
herself. She promised, but explained that she has little control and did
not know what the matter with her was.
"When she was 15, she started staying out until
the early hours of the morning and she had access to alcohol. Every weekend
she would get drunk at least once, sometimes twice. At least once a week
she would threaten to kill herself.(*).
Our second child once said "The atmosphere here is like there are an alcoholic
and a little child living in the same house. It's terrible". It looked
as though we would slowly but surely deteriorate
"In 2010 I started to feel aches and pains but
did not know what was wrong with me. I was pregnant. I asked myself "How
can we go on?" When our third child was born, I was somehow filled with
hope and I thought "This little one is a great chance for us!" From the
very beginning, our oldest daughter loved the baby, but nothing else changed.
The weekends were catastrophic.
My husband and I alternated between taking care of our youngest child and
watching our oldest daughter's outrageous
"While writing it down now, I am thinking "No
one will ever believe this but it does not matter. What's most important
is that it's now over.
"When the baby was 8 months old, I was diagnosed
with a severe illness. Another abyss
had opened for me. I begged and prayed to God for help. I ordered a bowl
online, one I already had and did not need. I didn't know why but I ordered
it anyway. When I received the package, I found a flyer about Bruno
Gröning. I had never seen this man or heard of him and I told
the sender that I had received this invitation in error and would return
it. But she encouraged me to read the information, check it out on the
Internet and consider whether perhaps it was not an error after all that
the flyer was in the parcel. I checked the Internet and Googled it. In
the meantime she sent me the dates of three upcoming Information Lectures
close to my home, plus the phone numbers of the community leader. To this
day, I do not know or understand why she sent me the information about
the Circle of Friends.
"Two weeks later on June 1st 2014, I went to an
Information Lecture. In the Circle of Friends I did einstellen
again and again to ask Bruno Gröning to help me get rid of my burden.
It made my heart feel lighter. I wanted so earnestly to get healthy, especially
for our youngest child.
"In the beginning, I thought about the people
I had read about on the Internet. I wanted to be one of them! Despite my
burden, life went on. In the meantime, our oldest child finished her apprenticeship.
The weeks passed with long talks and many tears on both sides. We then
agreed to see a psychiatrist, since, by now, she deeply longed to resolve
her situation. The psychiatrist diagnosed her with Borderline Personality
Disorder. When I Googled this for information, I was shocked. My daughter
was given a prescription of antidepressants, however she did not take them.
"August of 2015 brought us another weekend with
a festival and I knew this meant problems ahead as there would be plenty
of alcohol. I went to bed at 8 pm with our youngest child. I knew I had
to get some rest since the time after midnight would be difficult. As usual
I prayed with our youngest child and went to sleep. Around 10 pm I woke
up and tossed and turned. A deep sadness came over me as I looked at our
now 2 year old youngest child, with tears running down my face. At that
point I remembered about Bruno Gröning, I sobbed, turned my thoughts
to my oldest daughter and in my mind took her and put her into Bruno Gröning's
arms, as if she were a little child. Still sobbing, I said "I cannot handle
any more of this. I am at my wits end. From now on, you look after her."
I cried and prayed and went back to sleep.
"After 1 a.m. I woke up every hour. The house
was quiet; no movement. I knew that if our oldest came home, there would
be a big scene. Again, we would all try to calm her and persuade her to
go to sleep. At times like this she would climb, fully clothed, into a
bathtub full of ice cold water, hit her head with some object or demolish
"I became more nervous by the hour and at 4:30
a.m. I got up to drive around and look for her. It was not the first time
we had to do this. I went to the front door and received a shock. There
were her shoes! I quickly returned to the bedroom to ask my husband whether
he had picked her up. He said he hadn't. We both snuck into her room to
check whether she was there. We could not remember a single night in the
previous four years, when we had not heard her come home. Sometimes she
was very noisy, other times less so, but we always woke up. But here she
was, sleeping peacefully in her bed. I was stunned when she said the next
day that she had not felt like staying out much longer and had come home
at 12:30 a.m. We kept quiet, said nothing and observed in amazement how
the situation changed over the following weeks. Neither my husband nor
I dared to talk about it that night. We did not want to jinx
things. We both knew something special had happened.
"That night a new life began for our family. We
are so grateful to God that my tears still flow when I think about that
night. Then my heart overflows with love and I don't know whether the love
is flowing out of my heart or into it. At such times I feel close to God
and I feel a deep awe
and peace within me.
"I realized that Bruno Gröning first takes
care of our deepest heart desire. For me, this was the healing of our oldest
child and peace in our family. From time to time our daughter still goes
our and also drinks alcohol, but I have never again seen her drunk and
she has never again acted aggressively toward us or herself. She is a pleasant
and kind hearted person and well liked and appreciated by all. My thanks
to Bruno Gröning for the connection to God and for his help. Thank
one should not make any comment. First of all, the report speaks for itself.
And second, the medical and psychological understanding at present, in
my opinion, has no answers. But Bruno Gröning called the power which
made this happen, Heilstrom."....C.
Coma of unknown cause
Moti Hod, 58 years
Hadera Community, Israel
"On the 18th of March Ilan went to vote. His partner
and 2 year old twin sons were also in the car.
"On their way back home suddenly, without any
warning Ilan lost consciousness while his foot was still pressing on the
accelerator. His partner acted quickly and was able to stop the car. She
pulled Ilan out of the car and called the emergency doctor on her cell
phone. Ilan was taken to a hospital in Tel Aviv and immediately admitted
to the intensive care unit.
"He was sedated and put on artificial ventilation.
During his hospital stay he developed an infection in his lungs as well
as in other organs. He received high doses of intravenous antibiotics,
but they had no affect. The doctors tried 19 different antibiotics but
none helped. Despite all their efforts and investigations, the doctors
were unable to find the cause of the coma.
As soon as I heard about Ilan's condition, I did
for his healing, at home, in the Community Hours and in various online
meetings of the Circle of Friends.
"... Inwardly I felt very connected to him. Two
days later I found out that Ilan had awakened from the month and a half
long coma and had been moved to the neurological.ward.
There the doctors could not make a diagnosis
either. Ilan has simply woken up. He was fully conscious. All infections,
including in his lungs, had disappeared. A week later he could walk again
and had full movement of his body.
"... The doctors still do not know what happened
and see his healing as a medical miracle."
is astounding that Ilan returned to normal physical and mental functioning.
Medically that was not to be expected after such a long lasting coma. That
the request during einstellen for Ilan's healing and his awakening from
the coma occurred at the same time, is noteworthy."....Dr.